Monday, July 10, 2006

Suckiness

So I've thought a lot about the suckiness that is going on in my life right now and if I should post about it or not. Not sure how much everyone wants to know or what is appropriate in such a forum. After much thought, I have decided to say just a bit. I figure the great majority of you that are reading this have some sort of relationship with me and are going to find out anyway. The rest of you, I guess you'll just know more about me than you probably want to =). Anyway, after 12 years of marriage, my husband decided that being married to me is something he would rather not be. I have a whole range of emotions going from sadness to shock to embarrassment to complete pissed-off-dom (another word invented by me I think). I could probably vent for about 20 pages of blog, but I won't, as the mature side of me is trying to prevail through this whole thing. The closest I'll get to venting in public is to say what I find really incredibly sad about this whole thing is that the lives of my girls and I really won't change all that much except in name. That, my friends, is sad. Once again, thanks to all who have been so supportive of me and have let me vent in one way or another. My parents, Jeannette, Angela, Scrappy Emmy...you all are awesome. And if you are the praying sort....we all could use it as the future is so uncertain, scary, painful.

Anyway, onto happier things. What am I happy about? This for one....Look at my mom. Does she not look awesome? She has lost 40 plus pounds and is still going strong!

#2: My girls. They are the joy in my life and I am so thankful for them. This photo was taken almost 2 years ago when we were in Idaho. The layout was made with the July 3 Scrappy Boys kit.

#3: It is raining. We so need the rain. The crops need the rain. My grass needs the rain.
#4: This dress. I really like it. 6 months ago I would have been able to only dream about stuffing myself into this. Now 20 pounds (!) lighter it fits quite nicely. By the way, for the record, that 20 pound weight loss was done only for ME, by MY hard work and not in response to any impending doom (see above).

Alright that is all for now. Hope everyone is having a good day.

9 comments:

cld said...

Hard for me to comment on this blogg. I will skip the first part about the suckiness because I will say too many hateful things about "you know who" and how since he hasn't been there for you for years things won't change for you or the girls all that much.

The other, thanks for the push you gave me to get going. I love the LO of the girls. That LO is a winner.

Glad you are getting rain. You definately do need it.

And the picture of you is wonderful and as I told you the other day. Love the dress.

Hang in there...there are lots of people praying for you BIG TIME.

Starla said...

Wow! I am so sorry to hear about you and that man. I can't imagine what you're going through. I will be praying for you and the girls. You are a strong woman. You know you have an awesome family and tons of friends to support you! If you need to get away, Ohio is beautiful this time of year!!:) By the way, kuddos to your mom! She looks great!

mjdf said...

You look fantastic in that dress! And I agree that our mother looks very wondereful too! You know I'm praying for you and the girls.

frytown friend said...

I had a bad feeling this is what your "suckiness" referred to the other day. I'm so sorry that he is causing you pain- I hate that for you. I don't think this is any secret: My sis to going through the same thing right now. She also has two girls and has basically been functioning as a single parent for a long time. She's actually a lot happier and less stressed since he moved out. You two are both strong women and have a ton of family and friends you can count on. Love you.

chris said...

Stacy, I'm so sorry. As a "stranger" I always kind of wondered why there was not more about Kent on your blog, and why YOU were cutting the grass!! I will be praying for happier days ahead for you three. I KNOW you will land on your feet.

Cindy said...

Stacey you are amazing. I know few women who have accomplished a fraction of what you have. I think you are smart, funny, gorgeous (I am jealous of how great you look in that dress) Your mother looks fantastic and obviously you are a born cheerleader....who would have guessed it?

We are all behind you here in Idaho and you know you have our thoughts and prayers. Love to you and the girls.
Cindy

shannon said...

had to come back and comment on your mom! wowsa! good for you!

mikki said...

S- I am so so sorry to hear about this... and I'm sorry that I am only a stalker on your blog and not more of a friend to you... I wish we lived closer to each other...
I have had a 'YEAR' myself... marriage is so stressful and at times, I have to ask... 'why did i do this?' LOL
You are so talented and such a sweet person, that I wish you only the BEST!!! I hope you know that!!! Take care of yourself.. I'm thinking about you and sending {hugs} to you!!! ~Mikki

Heather said...

I'm so sorry Stacey, but it sounds like it's something that will make you and your girls better for it in the long run, if life has been that absent for so long already. Good luck though- I've been there (with no kiddos though) and it's not a fun road.

You & your mom look fabulous! Great work girls!